its okay even if it hurts..

it's okay even if i'm blind

it's okay even if i can't breathe

if i could just see you once

if i could just give you all my heart

how much more do i have to miss you?

so you could know my heart?

how much more do i have to cty and cry?

so the tears could dry?

**does it hurt because of loving you?

is it the punishment of loving you too much?

even if i were to lose everything

its okay as long as i have you

even if my heart shatters while loving you

even if my heart's all worn when waiting for you

it's okay because i love you

i'm okay even if it hurts.

the further i turn away to forget you,

the more i miss you, what should i do?

even when you say its not right to keep avoiding you,

you are the only one for me, what should i do?

even if i get poisoned or pricked

i can't stop my love for you

i will wait for you until whenever

i will endure even if it keeps hurtitng

because of loving you more

its okay even if tears fall down

its okay even if it hurts

i have this theory about why we love K-pop and korean dramas so much.

because it reflects that one innocent hope of love being that simple and that powerful, like in the fairytales. love that is willing to walk through all for us.

and because we know that it is just NEVER that simple and NOT likely to exist. err, well, for the cynic in me, yes.

like the lyrics of this song. its going to so soooo good [and it does. brings about the right mood when sung] but on reading it, "what is that person thinking??? to wait forever? this is madness"

oh, i suppose that should be about right then. didn't they say love is madness? *thinks*

i was talking to an old friend. and he was telling me, how he'd met someone like me.

and you know what? it just triggered something in me.

like a flash, i could see why i am so replaceable. i am simply ordinary, so much that if i could blend in like flour in a cake. this would not be the only instance.

for example, look at the times where people just come up and tell me things like "you remind me of my ex" or "that is really like our classmate!" and sometimes, even creepier, they'd start telling me about something about their ex/friend/acquaintence and i'd be thinking, "not to be arrogant and self-centered, but why does that sound so familiar??"

perhaps i should really stop being so dispensable..

see?

oh wait, i do see..

having a lot of scattered thoughts at the moment.. maybe i should just sleep this off.. i cannot formulate a clear emotionless statement in my head at the moment. being at war with myself is just exhausting and no fun at all =( my mother would say that i am simply too free

nights *head still spinning*