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i do not think i am singing just for the sake of singing.
i really do want to get it right
i really am trying very hard. i know that.
is it just that i am not trying hard enough?
or maybe this is just a waste of time and futile effort.
i really am trying very hard to feel how it is supposed to feel. to sing from my heart.

whatever it is. please do not try to tell me that i am singing just for the sake of singing.
please do not act like you know how i sing. how i feel each time i sing.

i am not impervious to you trying to help with your comments. i think you mean well..

but my frustration when it does not go the way i want it to, you think you understand?
you know how close i am to giving up each time?

since you don't then please stop lecturing and acting like you do.


because, it just hurts too much already. enough.

because i know i have better things to do.
i know that i may not be good in this, but surely
i am worth more than just my voice.