bye 2010!

why is it that everytime i blog, it is usually when i am down?

i want to talk to someone.

i want to sleep deeply and just wake up happy again.

i want a hug.

i just want someone to listen.

i want someone to share happy news with.

i just want to complain for the sake of it, (even though i know it is never right).

i just want to let off steam and then make new dreams.

it's already the 3rd day of 2011, and i wasted 2 days. basically, just dramaing, stoning.

i greeted the new year like how i normally would except that, this time, i couldn't sleep.

i tried to, i really did.

laid on bed tossing and turning for 2-3 hours while they rushed around to grab their coats (jostling my bed) to go out and watch the fireworks up till they ran around falling over each other, panicking about KaiChi and Matthew's injuries. the highlight (for me anyway) was when someone switched on the overhead light. it made it much more harder to sleep.

i read my card as promised before i slept. i thought i made my choice, but now, i am not so sure anymore either.

i realised a pet peeve, i hate being ignored.. when i ask a question, and it feels like i am talking to the wall. online, i can forgive, make excuses. but when we are talking, i cannot find the forgiveness in me.

i want sleeping pills.