::because i am stupid::

i'm really such an idiot, you're the only one in my heart

you who have eyes for someone else
you probably don't know how i feel
your days probably will not include me
not even your memories
its only me, the one watching you
who is silently crying

watching the shape of your back is a kind of happiness to me
even though to the very end
you do not understand my heart

when i want to see you
at times when i really can't bear it
the words "i love you" are alwayts lingering on my lips
i am alone crying for you
i am alone missing for you.

part of the lyrics for 'because i'm stupid' by SS501

lyrics and poems.
i typed this one out with reference to the clip of chapt15 i saw on MySoju. because the translations here caught my fancy. it is better and more thoughtful than the other translation version. at least i think so. but only part of it is in.
its not like i have nothing to blog about today. i had an, um, interesting day?
something is nagging my consciousness. something i am not certain about.
call me slow, but whatever that lurks in my subconscious, it will come out. tomorrow maybe? the day after? the most irritating thing is that you are sure you know it. but it peeps from the corner in your mind, refusing to show itself truly.
in times like this, i believe i am called crabby.. lolx.. insensitive, unreasonable.. *sigh*
i hate this confused me, you know?

i want to say sorry to a dear friend of mine. i was so immersed in looking for you that i forgot you have been very preoccupied these few days. so, here is my sincere apology, i am truly sorry.
insensitive i was, and i hope you will forgive me..
i promise, i will leave you space to breath this weekend. see you next week, Sheryn. ♥~

[a worn-out babYc] my own bleeding fault too.. =)