knowledge..

the flowers of winter are so beautiful..

but, the winter season is not only cold. . . it is one that reflects loneliness and sadness..

how can such cold and unyielding days have flowers that astound in their elegence?

yuuki no hana, hontouni kirei na..

demou, yuuki no kaze tada ni samui janai..

sabishii de kurushii no kimouchi wa ippai..

i now know why Xi is not online.. uh, she is in Shanghai right?? and where is that? in China right? and what do we know about China and internet connections?? uhh, lol~ she can't access her blog, OR our blogs.. she ALSO can't access FB.. *lmao* and i kept checking her blog like a bleeding fool.. hahaha.. when she smsed, then i realised it.. *i am still laughing* so looks like our correspondent will be out for the whole 6 months that she is there..

classes start tomorrow, [that's sunday] and she's met her teacher.. according to her, he is good!! as in awesomely good.. and no wonder, she is informed that she will be practising AT LEAST 7 TO 8 HOURS PER DAY if she is to enter the conservatory.. can you imagine??!? that's why her classes end at 7.30PM.. swt.. but she's like so happy *shrug* so, that's good.. i've never heard of someone being happy that their fingers' going to start bleeding soon.. haha.. and they tell us that CALs' hard stuff.. [ok, it is.. but we don't have her crazy schooling schdule..]

i can't wait to hear her first recital back.. ^^

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you laugh, you cry, you fake a smile

you try to pretend it didn't happen, you get depressed,

you get angry, you tell yourself its not worth it..

the stabbing pain gradually dulls,

leaving a precipitate of residual memories..

and slowly, one day..

you forget it

you get a new start,

you find something that you really really cherish..

this is my gift,

covered in blood and tears,

wrapped in misery and depression

but given with sincerity and a piece of my heart..

but achieved only after all the pain..

i am so truly sorry that you have to go through all of it..